It's been a while since I've posted and as you can see by the title, a lot can change in 9 months! It's not what you think--I didn't have a baby; I for sure would have blogged about that! Instead the complete opposite happened, I left Alex.
The original idea of this blog was to help me get through Alex's deployment. I was for sure that I would become deeply depressed and down when he was gone, so I thought this would help me cope.
Fortunately/unfortunately after Alex left my life was completely different from what I thought it would be. For once I was happy and it was because of me, not him! Who would have thought?! I CAN MAKE MYSELF HAPPY! I began creating friendships with people, picking up hobbies, and just completely coming out of my shell. So many people would tell me I seem different, happier even. They were right, I was.
I don't want to talk badly about Alex, so I won't go into details, but I am just an entirely different, happier, more outgoing person since I told him I was leaving. I don't and will never regret the life him and I shared. We both learned a lot of things about love, life, and ourselves through each other. I now know what I want and what I don't want and I will NEVER settle for less then I deserve.
Tomorrow I am going to speak with the lawyer to get the divorce process started. It's really scarey and I am afraid, but I know this is what needs to be done, for me. For my happiness.
So here's to me and the beginning of this new chapter in my life. I promise I will start updating more, it's just been a really stressful, hard 9 months!
